I have cancer.
How ironic that it is National Breast Cancer month.
I was diagnosed last Thursday night, on October 4th, 2012.
It is amazing how much can change in such a short period of time. This was something I never would have suspected would happen to me at such a young age. And I am breast feeding. Isn't that supposed to lower your risk considerably?
I guess I am one of that small percent.
We are shocked.
We are scared.
We are sad.
We are angry.
We are trusting our God in heaven.
We are ready to fight for my life.
So far, I have undergone several tests to find out why I had weird clogged milk duct (so I thought,) that would not go away and was not turning into mastitis. As I lay on the table at my ultrasound, waiting for the radiologist to come and discuss the results she saw, I took out my Bible app on my phone and opened it to the passage that we were studying in church - Luke 20.
I began to read about when the religious leaders of the time asked Jesus if it was right to pay taxes to Rome, and Jesus had them get out a coin and look at it. He asked them "Who's image is on it, and whose inscription?" when they answer "Cesar's," He simply tells them to give to Cesar what belongs to Cesar and to give to God what is God's.
My eyes kept going back to:
"Whose image is on it and whose inscription?"
I could hear the whisper of the Holy Spirit upon my heart saying to me ,
"You bear my image, Amanda, and my name is written upon you. Trust me with your body."
And even though my diagnoses was not until several days later, after a biopsy and many hours of waiting, waiting, waiting,
I have trusted Him with my body. No matter what.
Tomorrow is a PET scan to find out if and how far it has spread. I have already been so fortunate to feel God's hand upon me and His many mercies, due, in part, to many prayers. But please continue to pray for me.
Pray that the cancer is localized.
Pray that my family will find strength and peace through this.
Pray that we will not succumb to fear.
Because I know that we do not have to be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition and with thanksgiving, we can present our requests to God, and the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard our hearts and our minds in Christ Jesus.
I have already experienced this miracle in my life.
Just keep praying.